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Choices?

{ August 26, 2010 @ 02:45 } · { Diary, Penang, Thoughts, USM }
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I had just finish writing a post about my current feelings but I decided not to post it up as I know posting that might hurt me, myself and also the one who I want to dedicate it to.

I don’t know is it a right choice of not posting it up or not but I am released…..

Izzit after the writings or izzit after my final decision of not posting it up?

I am not sure….

But, this is what I wan to feel now….

Sometimes we cannot destroy what we named it as precious things….

Sometimes we just dare not do so…

No matter how you glue it, cellotape it, you can STILL see the crack(s) on the surface….

I dare not take the challenge on it…..

I prefer not to post that….

You can always call me coward on that…..

But, that’s what we have to be sometimes…

了解

{ August 26, 2010 @ 00:00 } · { Diary, Penang, Thoughts, USM }
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当我自己开始认为我自己很了解我自己的时候，上天又在闹我了。

上天又重新出了个难题给我。

我不是已经练到铁石心肠了吗？

我不是已经把受压能力推到最巅峰了吗？

为什么？

为什么？

我那握紧的拳头、颤抖的手，出卖了我。

有时我还在怀疑自己呢。

何时是真实的我？

何时是虚伪的我？

太多的面具，使我自己都分不清哪一个是我了。

想法

{ August 25, 2010 @ 20:07 } · { Diary, Penang, Thoughts, USM }
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是时候改变我的想法了吗？

是时候接受一切我以往不敢接收、不敢面对的问题了吗？

是时候把握机会，不要再让机会流失了吗？

改变我原有的想法不是件难事。

我发现，只要我肯改变，我可以在极短的时间内改变。

我真的要随波逐流吗？

还是我本来就不是人云亦云？

我本来就应该把那股不该有的想法丢掉呢？

信念

{ August 24, 2010 @ 01:08 } · { Penang, Thoughts, USM }
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人是要有信念的。

往往我们忽略的就是它。

每一个人的信念都不一样。

有些人有很多信念。

有些人盲目地跟随着自己的信念。

有些人没有信念但是还是过着生活。

信念到底重要吗？

我不是很清楚，但，信念就好像一个人生目标一样，让人们跟着它而漂流。

信念也分成很多种。

跟随自己的宗教、仰慕某某人、跟随某某的思维、因为它而改变…………

这些都是信念。

我不知道原来人的信念可以是那么强的。

团队的信念加起来更是觉得震撼、恐怖。

当他说起自己的崇拜者时，那烁烁有神的眼睛，在闪亮着。

让人不忍心打击他，只好附和他。（虽然心中有各种想法。）

有好的信念是件好事。

只要不要走火入魔。

Respect

{ August 19, 2010 @ 21:38 } · { Penang, Thoughts, USM }
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Well, this is another post about attitude and why am I not posting it at the same post?

Erm….

I just do not wan to make it too long…..? haha…. 😛

Respect….

Who do you respect?

Your teachers?

Your co workers?

Your colleagues?

 Your boss?

Your parents?

Your siblings?

Your mates?

Who else?

Are you respecting them because of authority?

Are you respecting them because you do not wan to offend them?

OR you are scare of them?

So, which is the one and who are you respecting is actually not very important here…. J

I am not bull shitting here and stop scolding me with all my craps if you are and thanks for the going on reading…. Hahahaha…..

Have you ever doing any presentation in front of your class?

Have you ever attended any presentations?

Well, well, well…. IF your answer is no to both of the questions above, it’s ok..

So…..

Have you ever talk to someone?

OR… Have you ever listen to someone’s talking???

OKOK….

It must be a YES to either one of the questions IF you are not deaf or mute or whatever…..

Never mind…. My words will still go on….. (Thick face here wut.. what to do…. LOL)

 

What’s the feeling if someone neglects you when you are talking to him/her?

Do you feel happy? Sad? Frustrated? Ignorant? Wan to slap that person? Or nothing at all?

Anyways, not important thou…. 😛

Come back to my own story and craps should stop at this moment….. kekekkeke….

This should go back to few days ago when I attended a lecture…. The lecturer get someone to come and teach us and his slang is different from ours and he was like just reading out the text from his written notes. Obviously, it’s definitely not an interesting lecture and almost everyone is not listening to him. Some starts to chit chat with their friend beside… some took their work out and do…. Some on their laptop and msn in the lecture hall….. Most of them are doing their own work…..

Please la….. WE are all adults…. PLEASE behave as you are an adult…..!!!!

It’s kind of respect when someone is ‘lecturing’….. he is not good in fact… everyone knows that…. BUT, it does not mean that you can start doing all your work and making noise…..

Okay…. Fine…… doing your work without distracting others I don’t care…… (As I am the ‘audience’… IF I am the one standing there, I need respect from my ‘audience’ lo…. ) BUT, please la…. Cant you keep your mouth SHUT!!!!! You cannot understand him.. you do not wan to listen to him… well…. That’s your OWN business….. you cannot take away my CHOICE….. I choose to listen and YET I cant because of your actions…..

Besides that, from one starts to talk, others follow…..

And… the volume of the voice will eventually getting louder….

When others are making noise too and you cant listen to your friend adi… eventually….. you are making your voice higher…. =.=llll

Wa liao…… there are other people who WISH to listen also one k….

AND…. Today…..

I attended a tutorial…..

The group of students who are presenting is just kind of presenting it to the lecturer where they can just face the lecturer and back us behind….. @.@

Anyways, it’s not totally their fault thou…. It’s just that the class is NOT listening….. they are making noise again…… zzzzzzzzzzzz……………. >.>

 After the tutorial…..

Another lecture of the day……

There are two girls in the class talking… YES… talking… NOT whispering.. They are talking in the class while the lecturer is giving his lecture……!!!!

Wa liao…..

NOT respectful AT ALL…..

I have to open my ear big big only can listen to the lecture…….

OTL

Respect is the basic manners I thou…..

It’s the fundamental of all……

OR Am I wrong???

We learned to respect each other when we were young….

We learned to greet others when we were young…. (Which is also one kind of respect)

We learned to behave ourselves when we were young……

What is all these when we had actually learn bout it?

When times come, we will throw all these away and we think that we are BIG and GRAND enough to throw away this word (respect)??????

“Respect” is to be dumped in the rubbish bin???

“Respect” is just a word in our vocab???

“Respect” is ONLY a word when it’s in front of the authority???

 

So, what is respect to you????

Who are you respecting AND who are you NOT respecting????

Do you seek respect from others?

Do you NOT wan others to respect you???

Learn to respect from today…..

YES…..

From today….

It’s never too late to learn so and benchmark of the ‘respect’ is vary from one another…..

BUT….

At least….. at the very minimal…..

PLEASE learn to listen to others when they are talking……

PLEASE learn to LISTEN…..

🙂

Attitude

{ August 19, 2010 @ 20:42 } · { Penang, Thoughts, Wishes }
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Someone told me that nothing can be exist as 100% but the total adding of A T T I T U D E came to 100, which accounts A as 1, B as 2, C as 3, and so on.

Do take out a piece of paper and do the counting now… Honestly, I just did the counting to prove my memory does not go wrong as my memory is Sdn Bhd (Sendirian Berhad) which is private limited… LOLZ…

Raya is around the corner….. Every Muslim must be damn happy when it’s the end of their puasa month which means their Raya is ready to be celebrated… Raya is just like a new year to them and it represents the starting of the Muslims’ calendar if not mistaken and they usually fast one month before their Raya which is known as Puasa month.

So, whenever there is a festival, the Malaysia police, PDRM will be taking actions, do more operations, TO reduce the accident rate. So, does it really works? I am not sure. It might works as everyone of us will be acting as a good baby in front of the ‘law’… when there is a policeman, we will reduce our speed and obey all traffic laws and while there is no one there, speeding is NOT a sin anymore…. XD

This is where the attitude comes in.

If we are not just ‘acting’ in front of the officers, IF we are normally a good driver that do not speed or doing any illegal actions on road, why bother to have so many operations to ‘trap’ us?

Most of the policemen are Muslims…

Why can’t they go off from their responsibility and celebrate with their family, reunion with them?

OUR attitudes led us so.

Besides that, it should a happy occasion and it will turn down to be a sad one if we are the unlucky ones…. And it happens because of our attitudes….!!!!

So, change your attitudes (bad one) when it’s not too late….

 You might not wan to be like the one below.. Right…. 😛

An early raya wish to the Muslims…..

……SELAMAT HARI RAYA……

Drive home nsafely…. ^^

无动于衷

{ August 18, 2010 @ 01:48 } · { Diary, Penang, Thoughts, USM }
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是什么时候开始的？

连我自己也不知道。

当我在藐视、轻视着我自己的受压能力与复原能力的时候，我在不知不觉中让他搬家了。

我开始用平常心来面对他的一切的一切。

我开始对他的存在保持着平静的心态。

我开始对他有着零期待。

我开始不用因为他而去减压。

我不用再厌倦并且讨厌那样的自己了。

原来我又回到原点了？

一颗平静到不能再平静的心，连我自己都觉得恐怖。

那个真的是我来的吗？

原来我自己都不清楚哪一个是我自己了。

我开始不认识我自己了。

连平时在意的一切一切也可以无动于衷。

我是我吗？

@.@

Post modernism?????

{ August 15, 2010 @ 17:45 } · { Diary, Penang, Thoughts, USM }
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I just went for a… erm… cooking class?? Lolx…. I am not pretty sure what should I name it as…. I was damn freaking free that day and got a call from my friend telling me that there is a seminar talking about skin care…. (Erm…. FYI… I am not the kind of gals that will go for all these so called seminars bout skin care la, face care la, cosmetic care la, whatever care it is la…. ) BUT, I had rejected her countless time and I was really damn free that day and without hesitation, I agree to go with her….

Well well well… wondering what the hack am I relating the cooking class and the skin care class right…. No worries..  I am gonna explain this…. Lolz…… After picking up everyone and we head straight to the centre… and it was actually kind of gathering that the CVI (one small company under amway) organized…. And….. Everyone in the car doesn’t know that the skin care seminar had changed to a ‘cooking class’…. I definitely won’t know and was kinda happy with this change…. XD XD XD

Food wo….. My favourite le…. Kekekkekee….. So, after paying the ‘entrance fees’…. We just managed to have seats at the second last row or izzit the last one? I am not sure…. Then….. the food’s odour makes me feel so nice….. Yippie….. 😛 hahhaaha…… the mouth watering me……… haha….. anyways, at the end of the session, we managed to taste the food….. But, the portion…. Dun mention bout it la…. You know it can be how small…. As we are just there to TASTE it… not to fill up your stomach although we PAID…… BLEHHHHHHHH……………….. XP

The main idea of the whole thingy was actually promoting their electrical gadgets and the same time, teach you to cook out some dishes so that you can feel the worthy of buying their products… great marketing strategies and it really suit the people who born in this generations with all the improved+adapted+advanced lazy gene…. Hahahaha……

That oven…. Okok…. Can I name it as an oven? Erm….. I am not sure……… but, dun care la…. The oven amazed me…… it can mix the flour…. It can do the baking… it can be set to time on when you wan it to be ready….. it’s just as simple as learning A B C….. haha…. If you wan a loaf of bread to be your breakfast, what you have to do is just measure the correct amount of all the ingredients and stuff it in the mole and plug on the electric and press a few buttons and  you will get a loaf of bread ready in the oven the nex morning…. You can even adjust the time you wan it to be ready…. Do I sound jakun on this??? I know this must have existed in the market for quite some time and I didn’t even realize the existence of this product…. OMG……… @.@

Life of cooking had become so much easy with the advancement of technologies…….

So, is it a good thing or bad?

I used to bake and cook at home once upon a time and I really do enjoy the process of doing so…. Putting all things together…… TRYing my best to get it well done…. Waiting for the result…. Standing anxiously at the oven’s door…. Praying hard for my ‘baby’… LOLZ….. It’s kinda annoying sometimes and the feeling is just like you are in the heaven when you had succeeded on it and what a great disappointment when your baby is not that well done…. XD

I think most of them know what I am trying to express if they have the same experience as I do…. BUT, look at the society nowadays…….. I should better blame the technologies….hiak hiak hiak hiak….  In this globalization world, we want everything to be done in the greatest pace and in the easiest way. We are compressing time and space in this globalization world… we do not wan ourselves to be laid back. We wan to stand at the first line…. We wan to grab all good things in the length of one hand and not 100000000000000 feetssssssssss away….. we are competing with each other…… and we wan to be the champion… no one wants to be the last one in his/her entire life. It’s kind of shame to most of them.

I was pointing out my point to one of my friends…. And… you know what he answered me? O no…. the process… I dun wan to go with…. It’s tiring……. Why not just enjoy the product….. and we cant do as good as the machine does……

O ya…. You are right…… You are enjoying the different parts of workout as I do…. I prefer to enjoy the tired part too….. erm…. I sound so 犯践….. I like a 自虐狂 now…. Hahaha….. maybe I am… but, what to do….. hehe…..

Everyone wants a one stop thingy nowadays and no one will wan to do something complicated and exhausting…. We are trained to be so and we wan to cut off all the troublessssssssss…………

We are no longer working out with our own body………….. we will have loose muscles………………

Anyways, at the same time….. when we do not wan to do this and that, we tend to think of…… I WAN TO BE SLIMMER……. I WAN A HEALTHIER BODY…….. I wan this and I wan that….. I WAN TO GET RID OF THE FATS…………… OMG…. THE FATS IN MY BODY IS ACCUMMULATING….. OMG…. I NEED TO UNDERGO DETOXICIFICATION….. OH NO…. I AM ON A PLAN BY BLA BLA BLA TO SLIM DOWN….. OMG…. SHE LOOKS GORGEOUS AFTER THE BLA BLA BLA PLAN…. YOU NEED TO BLA BLA BLA ONLY CAN BLA BLA BLA….

Swt…. All these nonsense….. Okok… It might not be nonsense… It does make sense… But, what comes to all these situation? The lazy us that do not wan to do practically with our hand on just baking a loaf of bread……. We rather registered ourselves on XXX trainer at XXX gym or on XXX consultant at XXX beauty centre……

Well… I know I know… it’s your money and your time…. You have the full right to do what ever you wan….. but, dun you think it’s kind of…………… erm…… 自打嘴巴？when you said you felt tiring on rolling the dough of bread and you wan to pay so much to others ONLY to slim down?

What kind of mindset do we have now?

OR izzit everyone is getting along the trend when all prices of activities has change and or is it all the companies with their greatest marketing strategies that are manipulating us????

O well…. It’s the thinking of almost everyone….. It’s not only the kiddo or the folks…. 无知妇孺 this term can no longer be use……

Everyone is wu zhi now…..

We only will FOLLOW…..

People say there’s a mountain of gold in front and everyone will be heading there although it’s shits everywhere in front…..

The one who is telling you bout it will be definitely felt happy as he can go pick up the real gold at another direction…………….

Who gain the most?

Of course the one picking up gold happily behind you la…..

The smarties in the companies…. They know….. to sustain their profit earning….. they have to have your heart in hand at the first place…. Human beings cant run away from this and this is the only way that you can bond them and they wont run away because of that……

Relationships among humans are the most difficult to be developed and once it is developed…. It’s 10000000000 times harder to get it loosen….  

Human beings need to be nurtured naturally……

And….. Companies are using this ‘weak point’ on their marketing strategies and everyone is in the loop and many of us do not even know that we are……………

This is the post modernism that I wannted to point out???

We are in the blur @ grey stage where we do not know what’s right and what’s wrong and all right and wrong can only be judged by oneself due to his/her experiences and no clear cut between this…….

NO RIGHT AND WRONG……

ONLY DIFFERENT POINT OF VIEW………….

Friend(s)

{ August 15, 2010 @ 16:15 } · { Penang, Thoughts, USM }
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Friend(s)…..

What does this term mean to you?

Someone who can hang out with you when you are free?

Someone who can bull shit with you when you are free?

Someone who has the same hobby with you?

Someone who has the same interest as you?

Someone who can share all your happiness?

Someone who can share all your sadness?

Someone who can tell you whatever is in his/her heart?

Someone who share her/his knowledge with you?

Someone who does not hesitate to give you her/his heart?

Someone who will not back step you?

Someone who will give you a helping hand when you need it?

Someone who will…………………………………..

So, what is a friend to you?

What’s your reaction if you are betrayed by a so called friend?

Il/legal

{ August 13, 2010 @ 14:32 } · { Penang, Thoughts }
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School bus driversss in Malaysia are raping the school kidsss and the minister responded by saying that they are bus drivers under unlicensed corporations.

So, you are trying to get rid of ALL the responsibilities by telling the public that they are illegal?

So, you are telling the public that letting your kids on the illegal school buses, you have to take the risk on saying that your kids might be raped?

So, you are telling us that NON of the legal school bus drivers did that?

So, you are telling us that illegal school buses are operating everywhere and there are a lot of illegal school buses around?

How can WE, know at the first place that which school bus is legal and which is not?

The authorities had made the ILLEGAL school buses bloom and without taking much further actions (or they are closing one of their eyes or they do not even know the existence of them [which everyone will not believe in this statement]…)

So, why are you telling us about this?

Aren’t you should do something on it to reduce all these to happen?

Now is not the matter of il/legal school buses or drivers…..

Here is another major social problem that occurred….

This MUST had been happening long time ago and we just do not know that as we are not concern on it or take all these for granted and when times come, it had became a big issue and a term from the Chinese proverb, 纸包不住火, the paper cannot wrap fire??? LOLZ… can best describe this.

This is the normal scenario when all the tiny tiny things happen around us; we just take it for granted. And when it’s no longer ‘tiny’….. when it had became something BIG…. Something that we hardly can control, everything will be exploded and it’s the time when we cant afford to solve it and we are starting to blame this and blame that just like how the Malaysia minister did.

Once, again….

Here is not talking about the il/legal issue…

She should look at/from the social perspective point…..

Isnt that she has to think why all these happening in our current society?

What had happen to the society?

What mindset is the driver is having when he is raping the school kids? (And it’s in front of everyone.)

How can the kid stand on all this? What about the other kids who acted as the ‘audience’?

This is another nightmare for them and they are still young….

Isn’t that actions need to undergo to prevent all these from happening again?

THESE are the things that SHE should be looking at….

NOT the il/legal school buses…..

PLEASE la……

No one is interested whether they are legal or illegal la…..

What we are concern and sad of is that why society has became like that.

CAN SHE LOOK AT THE POINT CLEARLY…..

HOW CAN SHE BE A MINISTER WHEN SHE IS HANDLING THINGS LIKE THAT???

OR….

THIS IS THE MAJOR CRITERIA TO BECAME A MINISTER….????

@.@

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